Stepping Off

I did a wonderful thing. I quit my secure, well-paying job at a university with great insurance and a great retirement plan. I got to bike to work in a great town through beautiful neighborhoods. I got to be at the nexus of policy, research and education at state and national levels. I made friendly connections with interesting dynamic change agents and decisionmakers at state and local agencies and educational institutions across the state. I got to travel to Africa and Central America to help on watershed projects. I got to work with top scientists in aquatic ecology, hydrology, geochemistry, and climate science. I learned tons about those sciences, and about water sustainability, research, hydrologic databases, and academia.  I also learned that I am not meant for a desk job dealing more with computer files than people being asked to help groups of faculty that are not sure what they need to be helped because they are in a brittle system set up to function only if each person devotes a tiny amount of time and thought to each of their 100 projects/students/classes.

Going to work started to feel like a chore, and even punishment, because my passion was really in my social, arts and nature activities. I had projects in sewing, puppeting, organizing, and work just seemed to get in the way. I had no time for this "work!"

My spirit started struggling and rearing up. My higher self  decided I was done with this pretense of comfort, because in actuality, I was growing to be very uncomfortable on many levels. I found I was pretending that how we were doing things was fine with me. And I felt unseen, and I squashed my own expression more and more... first with a sense of frustration, and then peacefully, with a sense of acceptance with a deep knowledge that this was so temporary and so not my world,,, I used to think that this academia thing should be my world. Then it was clear that I was meant for other endeavors.   I could see this was a big machine working in ol dwell-worn ways with old worn out ideas at the institutional level. How incredibly boring and uninspiring. I could go on. But let's get back to me.

I found a part of myself rebelling against the comfort and security... something suddenly surprised me... a suggestion that I should quit  without finding another job... I needed a break from 'working.' It was my spirit that insisted on this. So I saw myself deciding to quit as soon as I had saved $12,000.  I would somehow go outside of my routine and out of my current society for a while to shake up my world in such a way that things would look different, like shaking a snow globe or a etch a sketch like blowing a Mandala away. e a hunch that things aren't really as they seem right now. There is a lot of illusion. Until I get out of my routine, my house, my comfort, I will have limited viewing.

So it is time for a retreat, a time to step back, zoom out, refresh, put on new glasses (or take off the glasses), climb out of the cave (I love the image of Plato's cave where people are enchanted by their own shadows and are comfortable in that safe warm cave and don't want to realize that their shadows are just shadows, and that the bigger truer world of life and expansion lay outside the cave itself.

So I plan to go to India on January 24 with my friend Kanika and her family. We are invited to her cousin's wedding and I am so honored that they will host me in their home! I go north from there to the base of the Himalayas for meditation retreat down the road from the Dalai Lama. I will travel south after that to do yoga and retreat in several other places, to meet a few friends, to experience elephants. Then I fly to Thailand. There I will explore more of the elephant world and conservation. More about that soon... 

People want to know the PLAN... I think they get confused and worried when the plan is very loose, and undefined... maybe I am too a little bit. My goal is to establish connections with people there, and learn about opportunities and then have those in my list of options once I am there... but I won't have everything planned out. I know I will be ok. I am trusting the world to catch me as I step off the edge into the  arms of love from people and animals. I will invite that love by sending love out And I have plenty of intellingence and travel savy to help me along.

Building 7? Learn about 9/11 please!

I feel it is important not to loose sight of the incredible evil acts of September 11, 2001, and to understand who created the situations in New York, Washington DC and Penssylvania that killed 1000's of innocent American people. 

Please watch this 2nd edition of Loose Change, that explains some science behind the airplane/building collisions, the collapses of 3 buildings in New York, the collision of a plane with the Pentagon, and the confusion of the records, planes and flights related to flight 93. It shows some of the original/uncensored media reports of what was happening on the ground during the 9/11/2001 'attacks' that were later cut, and not shown again. These reports show evidence that the final story we all believe about what happened on that day is not totally accurate and was probably created by a strong-arming government who coerced news outlets to conveniently forget aspects of the stories and present a common simplified version that supported the decision to invade Iraq. 

Very well-produced for understanding the explanations... I think some stuff is off the mark (flight 93?), but I believe the 3 buildings in Manhattan were demolished by preset explosives set by our government.  I am  saddened to think about the people in the buildings, seeing all those explosives going off, being so confused and frightened, and then smashed by tons of concrete and steel. 

They really got away with it despite the 1000s of engineers who have signed on to say, in public, they believe the buildings fell from demolition explosives and no evidence exists that the steel (made to withstand 3000 degrees) would have collapsed after less than an hour of of fire. Wouldn't the fuel mostly burn off in those big explosions? How could it "drip down" to seep into the building and melt metal with those huge initial igniting events? 

How can they explain the glowing embers weeks later, and the traces of a military grade compound that gets extremely how and doesn't cool for days? Why did they occlude so many people from the site who wanted to investigate and gather evidence?

See this site made by architects/engineers discussing the truth of the physics that makes the story we are led to believe, impossible.

I am encouraged that there are a lot of Americans that doubt Building 7 collapsed by accident. Like me, they may be a bit afraid to be seen as an idiotic "conspiracy theorist." This is a great term invented by the establishment to brainwash people into the duality pushing themselves at the other end of the spectrum of those "crazy conspiracy theorists" who actually have a lot of data to support the claims of the government doing unthinkable things.

Key to any plan the government carries out under the nose of the American people that we would  see as unthinkable or heinous, is to color anyone who points to them as responsible, as conspiracy theorists, yet their other explanation is so full of holes, but we Americans are so terrified of the truth, we won't even look in the direction of what actually happened, it's just too terrible to ponder. 

But I am confused as to where the international community is in this... how can we just keep walking along after having done these obvious crimes against humanity? Are we that powerful and influential that nobody would dare challenge us as to how we created the fallen buildings and staged a mock attack by foreign Islamist terrorists? 

Our government gives me shameful feelings because of the profiteering interests that control it.... many in my country believe that our troops are out there right now doing good things in the interest of others' well-being and that we have the best country; better than any other.  And sometimes people who are upset about our government policies talk to me as if I am one of the people that supports and aligns with this government, and then I feel frustrated and judged. 

When I talk about this with people and tell them about Building 7, they look perplexed and ask "What is Building 7?"  Then I know they can't refute a conspiracy theory because they haven't bothered to learn what happened on 9/11. They have allowed themselves to absorb the sensationalistic, nationalistic story of how we were attacked and needed to fight someone back.  

Find out about Building 7! It is the key to opening the door to your mind to start asking the hard questions.